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[Aug. 14th, 2006|06:45 pm] |
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i haven't writen anything anywhere in quite some time. umm me and steve (my fiance) bought a house. we can move in sept 10th. i am quite excited about that. we'll be living in mio, mi. school starts in 2 weeks and i am glad to be starting business classes. my star gaizer lilies have finally bloomed they are gorgeous. soon i will be starting to plan my wedding. life is good. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|11:15 pm] |
1. Your name spelled backward?
tk
2. Last incoming call on your phone?
from jessica
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
all american rejects~ dirty little secret
4. What's your favorite restaurant?
olive garden
5. Last time you swam in a pool?
august in rahcels pool when we were suppose to be setting up the church for jessicas wedding
6. Have you ever been in a school play?
nope
7. How many kids do you want?
2 bam and cherry
8. Type of music you dislike most?
jazz
9.Registered to vote?
yes
10. Do you have cable?
yes
11. Have you ever ridden on a mo-ped?
nope
12. Ever made a prank phone call?
yes quite a few
13. Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
yes fiance
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
no i am afraid of heights
15. Furthest place you ever traveled?
disney world
16. Do you have a garden?
no
17. What's your favorite comic strip?
don't read them
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem ?
only to the part everyone sings, not the extended version.
19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
shower in the morning
20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
4 brothers
21. Favorite pizza toppings?
bacon
22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips yummy
23. What color lipstick do you usually wear?
mr jones fufu berry chapstick
24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
no......
25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
nobut i did attend modeling school and i did a few runway shows there but nothing for advertising the rents wouldn't let me
26. Orange Juice or apple?
apple
27. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
i don't know went out to lunch with steven last friday and like a month ago i went out for dessert with keith, jessica, and bryan.
28. Favorite chocolate bar?
all yucky too sweet
29. When was the last time you voted at the polls?
haven't ever
30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
last summer at my rents
31. Have you ever won a trophy?
lol no
32. Are you a good cook?
i don't like to cook
33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
of course
34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?
nope
35. Sprite or 7-Up?
sprite
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
i wore football jerseys to support my bf and i wore a uniform shirt at tubby's
37. Last thing you ate at Walgreens?
I don't shop there
38. Ever thrown up in public?
yes michigan state fairgrounds after being on too many rides summer b4 my senior yr
39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
i found true love already so millionare
40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yes
41. Can ex's be just friends?
yes
42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
my grandpa
43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?
very very long
44. What message is on your answering machine?
don't have one
45. Where would you like to go right now?
australia
46. What was the name of your first pet?
freckles and all black stray cat we took in
47. What kind of back pack do you have, and whats in it?
blue and my fiances school books
48. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
currenty don't have one
49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
having a wonderful man who loves me
50. What do you think about most?
not having enough money to pay my bills |
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[Oct. 24th, 2005|11:26 pm] |
i feel selfish very very selfish. but i think it might be bcuz i was raised to be that way. heres why...
reason #1: i just got a 96 jeep grand cheroke red with 110,000 miles on it, everything works, good condition and even got 2 10 mtx speakers, the box, the best wiring, a 500rms light up amp and i was like only happy for like 2 days. steve took the loan out in his name but i pay him for it. i couldn't get it i haven't been at my job long enough or even lived here long enough. thing is i love the jeep and i like what it represents. represents something that is all kt's. but it really isn't. it's in steves name and it now includes responsibilities like pickin up steves bros and taking ppl down state for holidays and such bcuz the family now has 2 good cars. and theres no where to cruise and i have no friends houses to go to up here to show it off or just drop by at so basically it's just a work car. i am learning i hate responsibilities i like to be way free to do w/e the fuck i want. lol.
reason #2: steve's sis just moved out with the adorable baby breanna (which i miss already) just yesterday. and it's this huge debate over who will get the room. and my selfish side of course says why the hell is there a debate! currently me and steve share a room with his 2 younger bros. and for some reason they think it's joes turn for his own room and steve's comp can go in there for space for the wood stove in the living room. but the boys r up on lofts and it would just make sense to take our bed out from underneath and us have the room and the internet is already run to that room but the comp underneath. plus they get up for school early and don't and we get off work late and we can't even talk in there bcuz they are sleepin! plus we pay rent and lately too much i think and to pay this much to share a room makes me a little aggrivated.
reason #3: i do not like and never have like to share. and sadly i feel like i am sharing steve with his family. everything that should be going towards us and eventually starting our own family i feel like he is already putting into this family like he isn't ready to commit or try to be just me and him a family on our own. maybe i am just jealous too bcuz he has family i don't have anything or anyone else but him.
anyways my heart wants me to go downstate on halloween since i have the day off and theres no halloween ppl up here and i miss jojo but my mind says to stay why waste money and maybe be let down bcuz i don't have a costume or anyone to trick or treat with anyways.
maybe i just need to find a gym and a tanning place to sweat off these negative endorfins or something..... |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2005|08:38 pm] |
i hate my job. i supposedly start vicous rumors even though i don't talk much or work with anyone and hate ppl even though i am just mad at myself bcuz i cut/burn myself again. i want to quit so bad but i have to find a new job first.
steve and i are doing great. it just sucks we don't have time together to do anything. he goes to school and i clean house then we both go to work so we have like from midnight to whenever we both fall asleep to actually hang out. i love him so much. whenever i feel like everything still isn't coming together he puts into perspective that it is. we both work and he makes good money and he just makes me realize stuff takes time when i get frustrated and discouraged. he has some crazy happy motivation towards getting the things we both strive for. i love him for it. i wish i could just lay in his arms all day every day. *sigh*
steve's sis chelle got married this past friday and for planning it in 10 days it went very smooth. i had fun even though steve didn't go. he couldn't get out of work. i helped cook and stuff for it. aleshia and nick came up for it so that was cool and i was the bride and grooms dd from reception to the hotel so that was funny. :)
i got another tattoo. it's another star on my inner left ankle. it's pretty cool. the tattoo guy that it was a different idea and took a pick of it to add to his collection. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2005|10:08 pm] |
so i have pretty much just been working. almost every day but definitly haven't hit 40 hrs yet.
this past week me and jessica planned this romantic night for our men. we went out to walmart in alpena and got slurpees until 3 in the morning wed to get stuff for it. we put up tents, decorated these tents, bought and sewed sexy sluty outfits, cooked them dinner, and just was cool. my tent had pumpkin lights hung inside, a romantic cd going, a pumpkin carved with hearts and i love u in it and a cooler of beer and whipped cream. hehe. needless to say it was to seduce the boys. jessica set up her own tent in the yard about 10 ft away from mine. we left keith and steve cards at steves/my house and told them the nights plans and stuff and we picked them up to look sluty in their cars. we then gave them the sexy attire we bought for them (silk boxers) and brought them a dinner of mac and cheese, meat balls, cheese sticks, rolls, and cheese cake. and cuddled and talked and seduced our men in our own tents. and it was really nice and romantic and just wow to have time and something that special to ourselves. i love my hunny bunny. and it felt so great to have this night to just be us and not worry about anything and actually have time together. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2005|02:10 pm] |
What is your FULL name? Kathryn Marie Spain
How old are you? 19
When's your birthday? Dec 19, 1985
Which one of these are you?! {Punk, Prep, Goth, Freak, Gangsta, Emo} none i am plain
What's your Zodac Sign? sag
How tall are you? 5'4"
Are you, skinny, chunky, chubby, fat, or extra fat? thin maybe average...12
.::Love Life::.
Are you in love? yes very much so that i am engaged
If so, with whom? Steve Koslakiewicz
Have you ever hugged that person? many times
Have you ever kissed that person? of course
Are you a virgin? i think u can figure that out
Favorites
What's your favorite color? green
What's your favorite band/singer? britney spears
What's your favorite radio station? i don't listen to the radio really
What's your favorite type of shoes? slip on sandals
What's your favorite stores to shop at? pacsun and target
What's your favorite fast food resturaunt? taco bell
What's your favorite fancy resturaunt? Olive garden
What's your favorite type of food? lasagna
What's your favorite drink? coke
What's your favorite color eyes? eyes that kind of mirror what ur wearing. like if u wear green ur eyes look more green.
What's your favorite color hair? red
What's your favorite type of animal? kitten
What's your favorite subject in school? it was chemistry until i got to college now i'd have to say english research papers that sort of stuff
What's your favorite show? gilmore girls
What's your favorite movie? how to lose a guy in 10 days
This or That
Party or the Beach? beach
Coke or Sprite? coke
Doggies or Kitties? kitties
Shorts or Pants? pants
T-Shirts or Long Sleeved? t-shirt
House or Apartment? house
AIM or MSN? aim
Lions or Tigers? tigers
Love or Lust? love
Marrige or Sex Partner? marriage
Hairspray or Gel? gel
A Couple Best Friends or Lots of Friends? a couple best
Bath or Shower? shower
DVD Player or VCR? dvd
Shoes or Sandals? sandals
Lipstick or Lipgloss? chap stick
Fan or AC? fan
God or Devil? God?
Your Name
Do people misspell your name? yes
If so, first or last name? first
How do they misspell it? katie or katy or katherine
How many other people do you know, with the same first name as you? a lot
What about your last name? no one besides family
Is anybody named after you? not after me
Are you named after anyone? nopes
Would you name your child the same name as you? not at all
Do you like your name right now? who cares
Friends
How many friends do you have? i dunno
How many best friends do you have? none
Do you trust your friends? yup
If so, who? my friends
Are any of your friends straight? yea
If so, how many? most of them
Are any of your friends Bi? umm don't think so
If so, how many? ...
Are any of your friends Gay/Lesbian? gay
If so, how many? ...
Do you tell your friends your secrets? usually
Hyperest? jessica
Funniest? bryan
Shyest? keith
Sweetest? jojo
Most Ghettoiest? i don't know
Smartest? steve
Ditziest? me
Weirdest? ...
Stupidest? me
Smelliest? uh?
Newest? i dunno
Preppiest? rachel
Most Gothic? ...
Loudest? jessica
Sluttiest? ...
Who's your longest, known friend? jojo
How many years? since 9th grade
Have Your Ever
Smoked? yes
Got drunk? many of times
Kissed a member of the same sex? no
Skipped school? of course
Gone skinny dippin'? yups
Spent money on someone you really liked when they didn't like you? I'm sure I have
Told off a teacher? yup in college
Told off your parents? of course
Had surgery? wisdom teeth and foot surgery twice
Got beaten up? only during boxing lessons
Played strip poker? nopes
Thought about killing yourself? yups
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? yessum
Broken the law? {If so, how?} sure probably
Hurt yourself? yups back in the day
Liked someone who didn't like you back? of course who hasn't
Do You Believe In
God? in some shape or form
Ghosts? I think so
Miracles? yes
Good Luck? only sorta
Magic? uhm...no
Love at first sight? that would be cool
Witches/Worlocks? only when i was young and stupid and me and heather thought we were witches and boys where worlocks instead of thinking they had cooties
Staying faithful to your partner forever? definitely
Santa, Easter Bunny or the Tooth Farie? my dreams were crushed in the 1st grade bcuz my best friend was a jovahs witness. |
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[Sep. 11th, 2005|09:59 pm] |
1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Be sweet and put this in your journal |
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[Sep. 7th, 2005|10:13 pm] |
25 Questions You'd Never Think to Ask
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my hair
2. How much cash do you have on you? $45
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? best!
4. Favorite plant? star gaizer lilies
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? don't have a cell phone
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? no phone
7. What shirt are you wearing? a black t shirt
8. Do you "label" yourself? no
9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing? socks
10. Bright or Dark Room? bright makes me smily
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? i don't know kerri very well but she's a sweetie
12. Do you know what an 8-track is? it's some old 70's tape player or something
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking with my fiance
14. What did your last text message you recieved on your cell phone say? no phone
15. Do you ever click on Pop-ups or banners? no they are dumb
16.What's a saying that you say a lot? crazy baby
17. Who told you they loved you last? steve
18. Last furry thing you touched? my fuzzy socks
19. How many hours a week do you work? 20-30
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? none
21.Favorite age you have been so far? 18
22. Your worst enemy? myself
23. What is your current desk top picture? some stupid thing it's steves comp
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? i'll think about it
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to erase all of your regrets, what would you choose? a million bucks bcuz i have no regrets.... |
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[Sep. 6th, 2005|11:32 pm] |
put on a bunch of boxing gear the other night and at first i felt giggly and stupid but once i got into it i got angry and fierce and started boxing half decent. me and steve boxed and we watched keith and jessica attempt to box.
my job is okay. i worked on registers my first week and i liked it, it was simple and i liked everyone i was working with mainly suizie. then i got thrown into the restaurant part and i don't like it too much. some days it's so slow i am bored and others it's so busy and i work with a 17 yr old who can't run a slicer or do a deep fryer so she's no help to me. then i was told i was going to become the night manager of that department and get a raise (i was told this sunday) but i came in today and it was the same old crap. i don't think thats gonna happen. and i am not being scheduled for full time like promised and then they are kicking me out early too. how am i ever going to get a car? *sigh* it's not as great as i was hoping i guess.
my dad and grandrents came up and we went out to lunch and i was expecting lectures and crazy stuff but everything went well and actually had a good time and said they are glad to see me happy.
i talked to dee sunday and i miss her. i was looking at her wedding pics today and i am so glad to see she is happy with kurt and i really wish i could have been there she is so beautiful.
so w/e............... |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2005|08:46 pm] |
no school. they didn't get my scholarship money so they wanted me to pay all this money upfront that i don't have so no school. plus my address doesn't say i've lived here for 5 months so i'd have to pay out of district which is like a lot more. :*( but that just means fill time classes in the spring i suppose cuz i'll be indistrict and they'll have all my money at once.
i got a job. waitressing/cash register or w/e else they want me to do. $6 an hour and fill time. first day is friday so hopefully everything goes well and i'm thinking my xmas i'll be able to get myself a car as a present to myself. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2005|09:00 pm] |
went down state with steve's dad and chad. steve had to work. got some of my stuff. got to see my spookers and got to see how big my puppy got. me and my sis are getting along though. and my dad seemed the most talkative and understanding and gave me a big hug. and went to steve's grandparents.
went to gaylord today and saw 4 brothers and walked around walmart. it was pretty good.
i am going to register for some classes tomorrow and i have a job interview on tuesday. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2005|08:35 pm] |
ted never came. :*(
girls lost the cook-off by 9 points. all dishes were close except the boys beverage was better...so they won. :(
i asked steve to trim my hair and instead 3 inches got cut off and i need to go to a salon bcuz it wasn't even cut straight.
i need my social security card and/or birth certificate to get a decent paying job and i don't have either and my rents wont give it to me or the info i need to get them myself.
and to top it off i dunno if i should go downstate to get my stuff bcuz my mom has already started giving me crap when i called today to see if i could bcuz i never got an email and she will be there.
something cheerful please come along. |
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[Aug. 11th, 2005|10:37 pm] |
okay so this is the news. steve's bday went better around 11 or so bcuz gangles called and was coming up to his cabin and was coming over on his way there and then keith came over when he got off work and so we all drank and talked and it was fun. and jojo called and said they were coming and i gave matt directions. and of course i went happy hyper crazy giggly neat freak physco kt. well......
JOJO NEVER CAME!!!
so i got all excited, told everyone my best friend was coming, cleaned, haven't been that crazy excited in a long time. i was really bummed. i have come down even one day just for 12 hrs to see her and she can't come 2 hrs to see me when she was already planned for vacation. so needless to say i was heartbroken.
to make me cheer up, me and jessica went and got pizza and checked out cars for me and went cruisin and got drunk. but i was an angry drunk bcuz jojo didn't even call to say she wasn't coming and stuff.
had fun me and steve have been cookin stuff rather than sitting around. we made pierogis from scratch and chex mix and cupcakes. and just being fun and goofy.
this weekend we are having a cook-off boys against girls it should be interesting. i think us girls will one.
oh and the family got a kitten! it is the cutest little thing! and i got to sort of name it. i wanted it to be lady daisy but it's name is daisy duke. hehe. |
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[Aug. 6th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
okay so everything should be happy all the time now that i left the rents, right? try wrong. i'll start with this today is steve's bday and i thought i could do something cool with or for him. nopes. he doesn't want to do anything. like i couldn't tell u at all what he's doing right now but i knowhe's doing something with his family and i am sure they love having him to themselves for a day.
then theres this whole job hunting thing. not going so hot. every time we try having a day just to job hunt we end up having to run errands or do something else and we don't get anything to do with job hunting done. and i have been going out to parmalee like every day for 2 weeks bcuz they practically promised me a job when the new one opened managing a deli type deal. well thats when steve's mom goes and applies for the job! which is like what?! she works in a deli and of course has more experience than i do so of course she had to do a resume and of course they'll hire her b4 me. but that just is really low and shows his mom really doesn't like me for some reason. and she's been gossiping to ppl like jessica about how who do i think i am cleaning all the time like i think they are pigs or something which i don't i just get bored and like to clean. and saying how me and steve try to be like his brothers parents telling them what to do which never happens other than hey please put ur laundry away. i just don't understand.
on the other hand dad likes me a lot. i seem bummed or bored he comes over and talks and chills with me.
then theres school. i am pretty sure i can go but only part time. i called and got my scholarship money transferred to kirtland and applied and got my tech transcript sent. i still want to call and talk with a counselor to make sure everythings planned out good. i love school. and now i'll be taking classes i like. plus it'll be something to do rather than sit around here most of the time.
i really want to find a job for the fact i want to be able not to depend on my fiance. i like being able to buy and do and go where i want. even if it means only to jessicas and to drive myself to work. which also means hello i need a job to get a car! and steve and his dad keep saying we'll get u this and do this and it's like hello first things first i need a job and money saved and then we'll think car!
i haven't heard from my rents at all about going downstate to get the rest of my stuff either but i am going anyways. i want my stuff. and it's rightfully mine i paid for most of it. and thats another thing whenever me make plans to go down they get fucked up. like dad might come which means no seeing much of my friends or taking our time or anything our way. or like steve says he might have to work. yay. not.
i am normally pretty happy. we do get time together and i do have a lot of fun. but this week is just driving me crazy. i needed to vent bcuz steve just doesn't get it. *sigh* hopefully next update we'll be back to happy kt. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2005|11:05 pm] |
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first things first...I Got Engaged! lol it's a strange feeling to think i have a ring on my finger and i love steve so much and to hear and say fiance!
went to cedar point with a bunch of ppl and camped. actually went on some major roller coasters this time like raptor and millenium force and a bunch others. it rained so we had to find a laundry mat to dry sleeping bags bcuz we left tent windows 1/2 open. it went good though.
today had a kind of girls day with jessica and rachel dying hair and doing pedicures. it was fun. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2005|08:51 pm] |
so last weekend went downstate to hastings and stayed at jessicas parents for her second reception. me, steve, jessica, and rachel car pooled down there together. we had a good time. drinking friday night, the reception saturday, and hanging around boating and tubing sunday.
went to gangles one weekend and went tubing. that was fun.
one of steve's friends passed away from a serious car accident that we happened to witness bcuz it was almost in front of the house. r.i.p kenny. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2005|01:58 pm] |
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so i left almost a month ago now. i like it up here a lot better. it was a lot of drama when i left including the rents calling the cops trying to get me to stay but they said i could go. i stayed with dee for a few days to make sure i could handle all this stuff. so that was fun too. but things are working out well. was helping get ready for jessica and keiths wedding and did all that and it was fun. i like being with steve every day. not having to clean or drive beth around. but yea i gave up saginaw, not for forever though i will go there to get my bachlors eventually but for now i am job hunting and plan on taking fall semester off to work a lot and get a car. i am sure everyone has their own opinions about what i did but i feel so much better being free from all the guilt trips and i just felt like i was being held so far back. i dunno w/e. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2005|09:26 pm] |
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I wanted to get myself to stop writing in here, but considering i have no one to really talk to that's probably not going to happen. me and my sis have been fighting like cats and dogs lately and i just can't get along with her and nor do i really care to. we are complete opposites and everything she says or does just makes me crazy. which is the reason i stomped out and went for a walk tonight just went up to the elementary and swang on my swing. and it got me thinking so much on why i am so scared to just get up and leave and have steve come get me and for some reason today i am not scared i am ready to go. saginaw isn't that important to me...being able to not be cinderella cleaning up after everyone everyday and not having anything to do or anywhere to go just isn't appealing and i am not willing to put myself through that anymore. i need to move out. i want to move out. All i talk about is wanting to run away and asking anyone and everyone to run away with me and u know what? it's about time i just do it. but how do i just say "hey mom and dad this isn't working for me i am gathering my clothes and steve is coming to get me i am done here" ? and then have to hear everything they say and think about it while it takes him 4 hrs to get here.... i guess thats just the part i am scared about. i think sometimes maybe i am just a giant baby and i need to learn suck it up and just deal everyone probably goes through some kind of similar bullshit right? all i have here are grown apart friendships and wonderful memories. all i have at tech are a few new friendships and memories. i want to be where steve is. his family loves me more than my own, i can do what i want..when i want, his friends are more accepting, i can find a job, and i have my bf. and i could go to college even though it'd only be a community one. what could be better? i dunno but with how things normally go i'll sit in my room tonight fantasizing about running away and i'll wake up tomorrow and just do the same shit i do every day. *sigh* |
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