urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings darnevilthings darnevilthings 2006-08-14T22:49:43Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:137795 2006-08-14T22:49:43Z 2006-08-14T22:49:43Z i haven't writen anything anywhere in quite some time. umm me and steve (my fiance) bought a house. we can move in sept 10th. i am quite excited about that. we'll be living in mio, mi. school starts in 2 weeks and i am glad to be starting business classes. my star gaizer lilies have finally bloomed they are gorgeous. soon i will be starting to plan my wedding. life is good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:137657 2005-12-02T04:15:10Z 2005-12-02T04:15:10Z 1. Your name spelled backward?<br />tk<br /><br /><br />2. Last incoming call on your phone?<br />from jessica<br /><br />3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?<br />all american rejects~ dirty little secret<br /><br />4. What's your favorite restaurant?<br />olive garden<br /><br /><br />5. Last time you swam in a pool?<br />august in rahcels pool when we were suppose to be setting up the church for jessicas wedding<br /><br />6. Have you ever been in a school play?<br />nope<br /><br />7. How many kids do you want?<br />2 bam and cherry<br /><br />8. Type of music you dislike most?<br />jazz<br /><br />9.Registered to vote?<br />yes<br /><br />10. Do you have cable?<br />yes<br /><br />11. Have you ever ridden on a mo-ped?<br />nope<br /><br />12. Ever made a prank phone call?<br />yes quite a few<br /><br />13. Boyfriend/Girlfriend?<br />yes fiance<br /><br />14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?<br />no i am afraid of heights<br /><br />15. Furthest place you ever traveled?<br />disney world<br /><br />16. Do you have a garden?<br />no<br />17. What's your favorite comic strip?<br />don't read them<br /><br />18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem ?<br />only to the part everyone sings, not the extended version.<br /><br />19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?<br />shower in the morning<br /><br />20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?<br />4 brothers<br /><br />21. Favorite pizza toppings?<br />bacon <br /><br />22. Chips or popcorn?<br />Chips yummy<br /><br />23. What color lipstick do you usually wear?<br />mr jones fufu berry chapstick<br /><br />24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?<br />no......<br /><br />25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?<br />nobut i did attend modeling school and i did a few runway shows there but nothing for advertising the rents wouldn't let me<br /><br />26. Orange Juice or apple?<br />apple<br /><br />27. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?<br />i don't know went out to lunch with steven last friday and like a month ago i went out for dessert with keith, jessica, and bryan.<br /><br />28. Favorite chocolate bar?<br />all yucky too sweet<br /><br />29. When was the last time you voted at the polls?<br />haven't ever<br /><br />30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?<br />last summer at my rents<br /><br />31. Have you ever won a trophy?<br />lol no<br /><br />32. Are you a good cook?<br />i don't like to cook<br /><br />33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?<br />of course<br /><br />34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?<br />nope<br /><br />35. Sprite or 7-Up?<br />sprite<br /><br />36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?<br />i wore football jerseys to support my bf and i wore a uniform shirt at tubby's<br /><br />37. Last thing you ate at Walgreens?<br />I don't shop there <br /><br />38. Ever thrown up in public?<br />yes michigan state fairgrounds after being on too many rides summer b4 my senior yr<br /><br />39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?<br />i found true love already so millionare<br /><br />40. Do you believe in love at first sight?<br />yes<br /><br />41. Can ex's be just friends?<br />yes<br /><br />42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?<br />my grandpa<br /><br />43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?<br />very very long<br /><br />44. What message is on your answering machine?<br />don't have one<br /><br />45. Where would you like to go right now?<br />australia<br /><br />46. What was the name of your first pet?<br />freckles and all black stray cat we took in<br /><br />47. What kind of back pack do you have, and whats in it?<br />blue and my fiances school books<br /><br />48. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?<br />currenty don't have one<br /><br />49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?<br />having a wonderful man who loves me<br /><br />50. What do you think about most?<br />not having enough money to pay my bills urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:137291 2005-10-25T03:41:57Z 2005-10-25T03:41:57Z i feel selfish very very selfish. but i think it might be bcuz i was raised to be that way. heres why...<br /><br />reason #1: i just got a 96 jeep grand cheroke red with 110,000 miles on it, everything works, good condition and even got 2 10 mtx speakers, the box, the best wiring, a 500rms light up amp and i was like only happy for like 2 days. steve took the loan out in his name but i pay him for it. i couldn't get it i haven't been at my job long enough or even lived here long enough. thing is i love the jeep and i like what it represents. represents something that is all kt's. but it really isn't. it's in steves name and it now includes responsibilities like pickin up steves bros and taking ppl down state for holidays and such bcuz the family now has 2 good cars. and theres no where to cruise and i have no friends houses to go to up here to show it off or just drop by at so basically it's just a work car. i am learning i hate responsibilities i like to be way free to do w/e the fuck i want. lol.<br /><br />reason #2: steve's sis just moved out with the adorable baby breanna (which i miss already) just yesterday. and it's this huge debate over who will get the room. and my selfish side of course says why the hell is there a debate! currently me and steve share a room with his 2 younger bros. and for some reason they think it's joes turn for his own room and steve's comp can go in there for space for the wood stove in the living room. but the boys r up on lofts and it would just make sense to take our bed out from underneath and us have the room and the internet is already run to that room but the comp underneath. plus they get up for school early and don't and we get off work late and we can't even talk in there bcuz they are sleepin! plus we pay rent and lately too much i think and to pay this much to share a room makes me a little aggrivated.<br /><br />reason #3: i do not like and never have like to share. and sadly i feel like i am sharing steve with his family. everything that should be going towards us and eventually starting our own family i feel like he is already putting into this family like he isn't ready to commit or try to be just me and him a family on our own. maybe i am just jealous too bcuz he has family i don't have anything or anyone else but him. <br /><br />anyways my heart wants me to go downstate on halloween since i have the day off and theres no halloween ppl up here and i miss jojo but my mind says to stay why waste money and maybe be let down bcuz i don't have a costume or anyone to trick or treat with anyways. <br /><br />maybe i just need to find a gym and a tanning place to sweat off these negative endorfins or something..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:136800 2005-10-04T03:54:40Z 2005-10-04T03:54:40Z i hate my job. i supposedly start vicous rumors even though i don't talk much or work with anyone and hate ppl even though i am just mad at myself bcuz i cut/burn myself again. i want to quit so bad but i have to find a new job first.<br /><br />steve and i are doing great. it just sucks we don't have time together to do anything. he goes to school and i clean house then we both go to work so we have like from midnight to whenever we both fall asleep to actually hang out. i love him so much. whenever i feel like everything still isn't coming together he puts into perspective that it is. we both work and he makes good money and he just makes me realize stuff takes time when i get frustrated and discouraged. he has some crazy happy motivation towards getting the things we both strive for. i love him for it. i wish i could just lay in his arms all day every day. *sigh* <br /><br />steve's sis chelle got married this past friday and for planning it in 10 days it went very smooth. i had fun even though steve didn't go. he couldn't get out of work. i helped cook and stuff for it. aleshia and nick came up for it so that was cool and i was the bride and grooms dd from reception to the hotel so that was funny. :) <br /><br />i got another tattoo. it's another star on my inner left ankle. it's pretty cool. the tattoo guy that it was a different idea and took a pick of it to add to his collection. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:136487 2005-09-20T02:15:55Z 2005-09-20T02:15:55Z so i have pretty much just been working. almost every day but definitly haven't hit 40 hrs yet. <br /><br />this past week me and jessica planned this romantic night for our men. we went out to walmart in alpena and got slurpees until 3 in the morning wed to get stuff for it. we put up tents, decorated these tents, bought and sewed sexy sluty outfits, cooked them dinner, and just was cool. my tent had pumpkin lights hung inside, a romantic cd going, a pumpkin carved with hearts and i love u in it and a cooler of beer and whipped cream. hehe. needless to say it was to seduce the boys. jessica set up her own tent in the yard about 10 ft away from mine. we left keith and steve cards at steves/my house and told them the nights plans and stuff and we picked them up to look sluty in their cars. we then gave them the sexy attire we bought for them (silk boxers) and brought them a dinner of mac and cheese, meat balls, cheese sticks, rolls, and cheese cake. and cuddled and talked and seduced our men in our own tents. and it was really nice and romantic and just wow to have time and something that special to ourselves. i love my hunny bunny. and it felt so great to have this night to just be us and not worry about anything and actually have time together. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:136399 2005-09-14T18:30:44Z 2005-09-14T18:30:44Z What is your FULL name? Kathryn Marie Spain<br /><br />How old are you? 19<br /><br />When's your birthday? Dec 19, 1985<br /><br />Which one of these are you?! {Punk, Prep, Goth, Freak, Gangsta, Emo} none i am plain<br /><br />What's your Zodac Sign? sag<br /><br />How tall are you? 5'4"<br /><br />Are you, skinny, chunky, chubby, fat, or extra fat? thin maybe average...12<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />.::Love Life::.<br /><br /><br /><br />Are you in love? yes very much so that i am engaged<br /><br />If so, with whom? Steve Koslakiewicz<br /><br />Have you ever hugged that person? many times<br /><br />Have you ever kissed that person? of course<br /><br />Are you a virgin? i think u can figure that out<br /><br /><br />Favorites<br /><br /><br /><br />What's your favorite color? green<br /><br />What's your favorite band/singer? britney spears<br /><br />What's your favorite radio station? i don't listen to the radio really<br /><br />What's your favorite type of shoes? slip on sandals<br /><br />What's your favorite stores to shop at? pacsun and target<br /><br />What's your favorite fast food resturaunt? taco bell<br /><br />What's your favorite fancy resturaunt? Olive garden<br /><br />What's your favorite type of food? lasagna<br /><br />What's your favorite drink? coke<br /><br />What's your favorite color eyes? eyes that kind of mirror what ur wearing. like if u wear green ur eyes look more green.<br /><br />What's your favorite color hair? red<br /><br />What's your favorite type of animal? kitten<br /><br />What's your favorite subject in school? it was chemistry until i got to college now i'd have to say english research papers that sort of stuff<br /><br />What's your favorite show? gilmore girls<br /><br />What's your favorite movie? how to lose a guy in 10 days<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />This or That<br /><br /><br /><br />Party or the Beach? beach<br /><br />Coke or Sprite? coke<br /><br />Doggies or Kitties? kitties<br /><br />Shorts or Pants? pants<br /><br />T-Shirts or Long Sleeved? t-shirt<br /><br />House or Apartment? house<br /><br />AIM or MSN? aim<br /><br />Lions or Tigers? tigers<br /><br />Love or Lust? love <br /><br />Marrige or Sex Partner? marriage <br /><br />Hairspray or Gel? gel<br /><br />A Couple Best Friends or Lots of Friends? a couple best<br /><br />Bath or Shower? shower<br /><br />DVD Player or VCR? dvd<br /><br />Shoes or Sandals? sandals<br /><br />Lipstick or Lipgloss? chap stick<br /><br />Fan or AC? fan<br /><br />God or Devil? God?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Your Name<br /><br /><br /><br />Do people misspell your name? yes<br /><br />If so, first or last name? first<br /><br />How do they misspell it? katie or katy or katherine<br /><br />How many other people do you know, with the same first name as you? a lot<br /><br />What about your last name? no one besides family<br /><br />Is anybody named after you? not after me<br /><br />Are you named after anyone? nopes<br /><br />Would you name your child the same name as you? not at all<br /><br />Do you like your name right now? who cares<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Friends<br /><br /><br /><br />How many friends do you have? i dunno<br /><br />How many best friends do you have? none<br /><br />Do you trust your friends? yup<br /><br />If so, who? my friends<br /><br />Are any of your friends straight? yea<br /><br />If so, how many? most of them<br /><br />Are any of your friends Bi? umm don't think so<br /><br />If so, how many? ...<br /><br />Are any of your friends Gay/Lesbian? gay<br /><br />If so, how many? ...<br /><br />Do you tell your friends your secrets? usually<br /><br />Hyperest? jessica<br /><br />Funniest? bryan<br /><br />Shyest? keith<br /><br />Sweetest? jojo<br /><br />Most Ghettoiest? i don't know<br /><br />Smartest? steve<br /><br />Ditziest? me<br /><br />Weirdest? ...<br /><br />Stupidest? me<br /><br />Smelliest? uh?<br /><br />Newest? i dunno<br /><br />Preppiest? rachel<br /><br />Most Gothic? ...<br /><br />Loudest? jessica<br /><br />Sluttiest? ...<br /><br />Who's your longest, known friend? jojo<br /><br />How many years? since 9th grade<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Have Your Ever<br /><br /><br /><br />Smoked? yes<br /><br />Got drunk? many of times<br /><br />Kissed a member of the same sex? no<br /><br />Skipped school? of course<br /><br />Gone skinny dippin'? yups<br /><br />Spent money on someone you really liked when they didn't like you? I'm sure I have<br /><br />Told off a teacher? yup in college<br /><br />Told off your parents? of course<br /><br />Had surgery? wisdom teeth and foot surgery twice<br /><br />Got beaten up? only during boxing lessons<br /><br />Played strip poker? nopes<br /><br />Thought about killing yourself? yups<br /><br />Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? yessum<br /><br />Broken the law? {If so, how?} sure probably <br /><br />Hurt yourself? yups back in the day<br /><br />Liked someone who didn't like you back? of course who hasn't<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Do You Believe In<br /><br /><br /><br />God? in some shape or form<br /><br />Ghosts? I think so<br /><br />Miracles? yes<br /><br />Good Luck? only sorta<br /><br />Magic? uhm...no<br /><br />Love at first sight? that would be cool<br /><br />Witches/Worlocks? only when i was young and stupid and me and heather thought we were witches and boys where worlocks instead of thinking they had cooties<br /><br />Staying faithful to your partner forever? definitely<br /><br />Santa, Easter Bunny or the Tooth Farie? my dreams were crushed in the 1st grade bcuz my best friend was a jovahs witness. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:136051 2005-09-12T01:59:35Z 2005-09-12T01:59:35Z 1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.<br />2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.<br />3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.<br />4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.<br />5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.<br />6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.<br />7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.<br />8. Be sweet and put this in your journal urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:135850 2005-09-08T02:30:37Z 2005-09-08T02:30:37Z 25 Questions You'd Never Think to Ask<br /><br />1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my hair<br /><br />2. How much cash do you have on you? $45<br /><br />3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? best!<br /><br />4. Favorite plant? star gaizer lilies<br /><br />5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? don't have a cell phone<br /><br />6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? no phone<br /><br />7. What shirt are you wearing? a black t shirt<br /><br />8. Do you "label" yourself? no<br /><br />9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing? socks<br /><br />10. Bright or Dark Room? bright makes me smily<br /><br />11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? i don't know kerri very well but she's a sweetie<br /><br />12. Do you know what an 8-track is? it's some old 70's tape player or something<br /><br />13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking with my fiance<br /><br />14. What did your last text message you recieved on your cell phone say? no phone<br /><br />15. Do you ever click on Pop-ups or banners? no they are dumb<br /><br />16.What's a saying that you say a lot? crazy baby<br /><br />17. Who told you they loved you last? steve<br /><br />18. Last furry thing you touched? my fuzzy socks<br /><br />19. How many hours a week do you work? 20-30<br /><br />20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? none <br /><br />21.Favorite age you have been so far? 18<br /><br />22. Your worst enemy? myself<br /><br />23. What is your current desk top picture? some stupid thing it's steves comp<br /><br />24. What was the last thing you said to someone? i'll think about it<br /><br />25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to erase all of your regrets, what would you choose? a million bucks bcuz i have no regrets.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:135447 2005-09-07T03:44:40Z 2005-09-07T03:44:40Z put on a bunch of boxing gear the other night and at first i felt giggly and stupid but once i got into it i got angry and fierce and started boxing half decent. me and steve boxed and we watched keith and jessica attempt to box. <br /><br />my job is okay. i worked on registers my first week and i liked it, it was simple and i liked everyone i was working with mainly suizie. then i got thrown into the restaurant part and i don't like it too much. some days it's so slow i am bored and others it's so busy and i work with a 17 yr old who can't run a slicer or do a deep fryer so she's no help to me. then i was told i was going to become the night manager of that department and get a raise (i was told this sunday) but i came in today and it was the same old crap. i don't think thats gonna happen. and i am not being scheduled for full time like promised and then they are kicking me out early too. how am i ever going to get a car? *sigh* it's not as great as i was hoping i guess.<br /><br />my dad and grandrents came up and we went out to lunch and i was expecting lectures and crazy stuff but everything went well and actually had a good time and said they are glad to see me happy. <br /><br />i talked to dee sunday and i miss her. i was looking at her wedding pics today and i am so glad to see she is happy with kurt and i really wish i could have been there she is so beautiful. <br /><br />so w/e............... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:135178 2005-08-24T00:49:23Z 2005-08-24T00:49:23Z no school. they didn't get my scholarship money so they wanted me to pay all this money upfront that i don't have so no school. plus my address doesn't say i've lived here for 5 months so i'd have to pay out of district which is like a lot more. :*( but that just means fill time classes in the spring i suppose cuz i'll be indistrict and they'll have all my money at once.<br /><br />i got a job. waitressing/cash register or w/e else they want me to do. $6 an hour and fill time. first day is friday so hopefully everything goes well and i'm thinking my xmas i'll be able to get myself a car as a present to myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:135031 2005-08-22T01:05:23Z 2005-08-22T01:05:23Z went down state with steve's dad and chad. steve had to work. got some of my stuff. got to see my spookers and got to see how big my puppy got. me and my sis are getting along though. and my dad seemed the most talkative and understanding and gave me a big hug. and went to steve's grandparents.<br /><br />went to gaylord today and saw 4 brothers and walked around walmart. it was pretty good. <br /><br />i am going to register for some classes tomorrow and i have a job interview on tuesday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:134857 2005-08-16T00:39:59Z 2005-08-16T00:39:59Z ted never came. :*(<br /><br />girls lost the cook-off by 9 points. all dishes were close except the boys beverage was better...so they won. :(<br /><br />i asked steve to trim my hair and instead 3 inches got cut off and i need to go to a salon bcuz it wasn't even cut straight. <br /><br />i need my social security card and/or birth certificate to get a decent paying job and i don't have either and my rents wont give it to me or the info i need to get them myself.<br /><br />and to top it off i dunno if i should go downstate to get my stuff bcuz my mom has already started giving me crap when i called today to see if i could bcuz i never got an email and she will be there.<br /><br />something cheerful please come along. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:134529 2005-08-12T02:45:45Z 2005-08-12T02:45:45Z okay so this is the news. steve's bday went better around 11 or so bcuz gangles called and was coming up to his cabin and was coming over on his way there and then keith came over when he got off work and so we all drank and talked and it was fun. and jojo called and said they were coming and i gave matt directions. and of course i went happy hyper crazy giggly neat freak physco kt. well......<br /><br />JOJO NEVER CAME!!! <br /><br />so i got all excited, told everyone my best friend was coming, cleaned, haven't been that crazy excited in a long time. i was really bummed. i have come down even one day just for 12 hrs to see her and she can't come 2 hrs to see me when she was already planned for vacation. so needless to say i was heartbroken. <br /><br />to make me cheer up, me and jessica went and got pizza and checked out cars for me and went cruisin and got drunk. but i was an angry drunk bcuz jojo didn't even call to say she wasn't coming and stuff.<br /><br />had fun me and steve have been cookin stuff rather than sitting around. we made pierogis from scratch and chex mix and cupcakes. and just being fun and goofy.<br /><br />this weekend we are having a cook-off boys against girls it should be interesting. i think us girls will one.<br /><br />oh and the family got a kitten! it is the cutest little thing! and i got to sort of name it. i wanted it to be lady daisy but it's name is daisy duke. hehe. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:134345 2005-08-06T23:20:55Z 2005-08-06T23:20:55Z okay so everything should be happy all the time now that i left the rents, right? try wrong. i'll start with this today is steve's bday and i thought i could do something cool with or for him. nopes. he doesn't want to do anything. like i couldn't tell u at all what he's doing right now but i knowhe's doing something with his family and i am sure they love having him to themselves for a day. <br /> <br />then theres this whole job hunting thing. not going so hot. every time we try having a day just to job hunt we end up having to run errands or do something else and we don't get anything to do with job hunting done. and i have been going out to parmalee like every day for 2 weeks bcuz they practically promised me a job when the new one opened managing a deli type deal. well thats when steve's mom goes and applies for the job! which is like what?! she works in a deli and of course has more experience than i do so of course she had to do a resume and of course they'll hire her b4 me. but that just is really low and shows his mom really doesn't like me for some reason. and she's been gossiping to ppl like jessica about how who do i think i am cleaning all the time like i think they are pigs or something which i don't i just get bored and like to clean. and saying how me and steve try to be like his brothers parents telling them what to do which never happens other than hey please put ur laundry away. i just don't understand.<br />on the other hand dad likes me a lot. i seem bummed or bored he comes over and talks and chills with me.<br /><br />then theres school. i am pretty sure i can go but only part time. i called and got my scholarship money transferred to kirtland and applied and got my tech transcript sent. i still want to call and talk with a counselor to make sure everythings planned out good. i love school. and now i'll be taking classes i like. plus it'll be something to do rather than sit around here most of the time.<br /><br />i really want to find a job for the fact i want to be able not to depend on my fiance. i like being able to buy and do and go where i want. even if it means only to jessicas and to drive myself to work. which also means hello i need a job to get a car! and steve and his dad keep saying we'll get u this and do this and it's like hello first things first i need a job and money saved and then we'll think car! <br /><br />i haven't heard from my rents at all about going downstate to get the rest of my stuff either but i am going anyways. i want my stuff. and it's rightfully mine i paid for most of it. and thats another thing whenever me make plans to go down they get fucked up. like dad might come which means no seeing much of my friends or taking our time or anything our way. or like steve says he might have to work. yay. not.<br /><br />i am normally pretty happy. we do get time together and i do have a lot of fun. but this week is just driving me crazy. i needed to vent bcuz steve just doesn't get it. *sigh* hopefully next update we'll be back to happy kt. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:133934 2005-07-28T03:08:40Z 2005-07-28T03:08:40Z <p>first things first...<font size="5">I Got Engaged!</font><font size="4"> </font><font size="3">lol it's a strange feeling to think i have a ring on my finger and i love steve so much and to hear and say fiance!&nbsp; </font></p> <p>went to cedar point with a bunch of ppl and camped.&nbsp; actually went on some major roller coasters this time like raptor and millenium force and a bunch others.&nbsp; it rained so we had to find a laundry mat to dry sleeping bags bcuz we left tent windows 1/2 open.&nbsp; it went good though.</p> <p>today had a kind of girls day with jessica and rachel dying hair and doing pedicures.&nbsp; it was fun.&nbsp; </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:133841 2005-07-28T03:04:42Z 2005-07-28T03:04:42Z <p><a name="cutid1"></a><br>Random stuff about you<br>full name:: kathryn marie spain<br>hair (real color):: dark brown<br>eyes:: hazel<br>dyed hair color:: ive dyed it light brown, blue, pink, red, blackish, and blonde<br>nickname:: kt, kat...<br>moms maiden name:: krafft<br>your country, city, and state of origin:: fairview, michigan, USA<br>what do u call ur parents:: umm her and dad<br>sisters or brothers?:: melis, dyan, and beth and my soon to be sibling shelle, joe, and chad<br>fav color? besides black and white they're not techinically colors:: pink and green<br>If u could own any company in the world what would it b?:: a floral design shop and i will too<br>If u had wings what kind would they be?:: butterfly wings<br>If u could take over the who would b ur vice ruler of the world?:: my fiance bcuz we think well together<br>What would u change ur name to if u could?::&nbsp; kaydance<br>If u could travel back in time, where would u go?::&nbsp; not really sure<br>What do u want to be famous for?:: being a caring thoughtful strong individual<br>Whats ur celeb crush?:: not good with celeb names but i like matthew perry<br>What would u be the angel of?:: giggles<br>Favorite band or bands?:: beastie boys and blink 182<br>What is ur fav type of art? mosiacs<br>Whats ur hogwarts house or houses if they change?:: i think i'd be a ravenclaw bcuz the name sounds cool and&nbsp; they need someone in that house to get it talked about!<br>fav fruit:: strawberries<br>fav flower:: star gaizer liles</p> <p>Are you....<br>racist:: nope<br>stereotyped often?:: sometimes<br>smart?:: i can be<br>a bit of a drama queen..or king:: i try not to be.<br>obsessive?:: with certain things<br>open minded?:: not really<br>religious?:: hmmm<br>tall?:: average<br>short?:: average <br>hyper?::at times <br>mellow?:: yea i guess<br>emo?:: lol sometimes<br>just certifiably crazy?:: lol i can be<br>a good driver?:: hey im a safe driver <br>a good friend?:: i try to be <br>often annoyed by your parents?:: don't live with em or anything so no <br>perfect?:: yea right </p> <p>How do u feel about?<br>watermelon:: i hate those seeds <br>the water curse:: not cool <br>abortion:: murder<br>France:: the city of love<br>illegal immigrants:: go home <br>the word air:: breathe?<br>pixie stix:: hyper sugar <br>orlando bloom in kingdom of heaven:: never saw it<br>the ppl who think hp is satanic: i dont know what that is <br>organized religion: i believe in god and that is enough<br>small children:: i want 2 max <br>your family all of it:: stupid <br>driving:: scary <br>people in general:: depends where u r<br>school:: i love school </p> <p>this or that<br>kfc/chickenshack:: chicken shack<br>mcdonalds/taco bell:: taco bell<br>seven eleven/wallgreens:: 7-11<br>plain water/flavored:: just plain <br>cappicino/frappuccino(sp?):: cappicino<br>red/blue:: red <br>purple/pink:: pink.<br>green day/mcr:: green day <br>jimmy eat world/the killers:: jimmy eat world<br>hp/or lotr:: huh??<br>batman/spiderman:: spiderman <br>batman/superman:: batman has a cool car <br>catwoman/poison ivy:: cat woman duh! <br>friendship/love:: love is friendship on fire </p> <p>Other stuff<br>whats ur religion:: hmm i dunno<br>whats ur style:: casual <br>whats ur fav sound:: rain <br>if u could go anywhere once before you die where would you go:: a tour of europe to eat italian lasagna, france to climb the effiel tower, and irland to drink beer in an authentic pub<br>Where would u live:: anywhere<br>what car would you drive:: a 76 sting ray corvette<br>would u adopt asian kids:: no<br>so u think highschool relationships work:: never<br>do u believe in true love like fairy tale romance true love:: yes<br>do u think life is chance or destiny and why:: i think everyone has a different destiny paths and by each decision u set urself stringly down one more than another.<br>Isnt the best survey ever?:: eh<br>ok ignore above question:: oops.<br>longest relationship:: 20 months<br>do u believe in magic:: nope<br>who is ur best friend or friends?:: steve <br>what is your fav movie of 05 so far:: dunno<br>fav book of 05:: hp 6 <br>fav author:: ??<br>what movie are u looking forward to:: hp 4<br>book:: ?</p> <p><br><br></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:133433 2005-07-15T00:54:23Z 2005-07-15T00:54:23Z so last weekend went downstate to hastings and stayed at jessicas parents for her second reception. me, steve, jessica, and rachel car pooled down there together. we had a good time. drinking friday night, the reception saturday, and hanging around boating and tubing sunday. <br /><br />went to gangles one weekend and went tubing. that was fun.<br /><br />one of steve's friends passed away from a serious car accident that we happened to witness bcuz it was almost in front of the house. r.i.p kenny. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:133138 2005-07-02T18:02:31Z 2005-07-02T18:02:31Z so i left almost a month ago now. i like it up here a lot better. it was a lot of drama when i left including the rents calling the cops trying to get me to stay but they said i could go. i stayed with dee for a few days to make sure i could handle all this stuff. so that was fun too. but things are working out well. was helping get ready for jessica and keiths wedding and did all that and it was fun. i like being with steve every day. not having to clean or drive beth around. but yea i gave up saginaw, not for forever though i will go there to get my bachlors eventually but for now i am job hunting and plan on taking fall semester off to work a lot and get a car. i am sure everyone has their own opinions about what i did but i feel so much better being free from all the guilt trips and i just felt like i was being held so far back. i dunno w/e. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:132937 2005-06-07T01:58:17Z 2005-06-07T01:58:17Z I wanted to get myself to stop writing in here, but considering i have no one to really talk to that's probably not going to happen. me and my sis have been fighting like cats and dogs lately and i just can't get along with her and nor do i really care to. we are complete opposites and everything she says or does just makes me crazy. which is the reason i stomped out and went for a walk tonight just went up to the elementary and swang on my swing. and it got me thinking so much on why i am so scared to just get up and leave and have steve come get me and for some reason today i am not scared i am ready to go. saginaw isn't that important to me...being able to not be cinderella cleaning up after everyone everyday and not having anything to do or anywhere to go just isn't appealing and i am not willing to put myself through that anymore. i need to move out. i want to move out. All i talk about is wanting to run away and asking anyone and everyone to run away with me and u know what? it's about time i just do it. but how do i just say "hey mom and dad this isn't working for me i am gathering my clothes and steve is coming to get me i am done here" ? and then have to hear everything they say and think about it while it takes him 4 hrs to get here.... i guess thats just the part i am scared about. i think sometimes maybe i am just a giant baby and i need to learn suck it up and just deal everyone probably goes through some kind of similar bullshit right? all i have here are grown apart friendships and wonderful memories. all i have at tech are a few new friendships and memories. i want to be where steve is. his family loves me more than my own, i can do what i want..when i want, his friends are more accepting, i can find a job, and i have my bf. and i could go to college even though it'd only be a community one. what could be better? i dunno but with how things normally go i'll sit in my room tonight fantasizing about running away and i'll wake up tomorrow and just do the same shit i do every day. *sigh* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:132760 2005-06-01T01:45:29Z 2005-06-01T19:26:24Z <p><a name="cutid1"></a><br>( x) smoked a cigarette<br>( x) smoked a cigar<br>(x) smoked anything else<br>( ) made out with a member of the same sex<br>( ) crashed a friend's car</p> <p><br>(x) been in love<br>(x) been dumped<br>(x) shoplifted<br>( ) been fired<br>( x) been in a fist fight</p> <p><br>(x) snuck out of parent's house<br>(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back<br>( ) been arrested<br>(x) made out with a stranger<br>(x) gone on a blind date</p> <p><br>(x) lied to a friend<br>( ) had a crush on a teacher<br>(x) skipped school<br>( ) slept with a co-worker<br>( ) seen someone die</p> <p>( ) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends<br>( x) been to Canada<br>( ) been to Mexico<br>(x) been on a plane<br>( ) thrown up in a bar</p> <p>( ) eaten Sushi<br>( ) been snowboarding<br>( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace<br>( ) been moshing at a concert</p> <p>(x) been in an abusive relationship<br>(x) taken painkillers<br>(x) love someone right now<br>(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by<br>(x) made a snow angel</p> <p><br>(x) had a tea party<br>(x) flown a kite<br>(x) built a sand castle<br>(x) gone puddle jumping<br>(x) played dress up</p> <p>(x) jumped into a pile of leaves<br>(x) gone sledding<br>(x) cheated while playing a game<br>(x) been lonely<br>(x) fallen asleep at work/school</p> <p>( ) used a fake ID<br>(x) watched the sun set<br>( ) felt an earthquake<br>(x) touched a snake</p> <p><br>(x) been tickled<br>( ) been robbed<br>( ) robbed someone<br>(x) been misunderstood<br>( )&nbsp; pet a reindeer/goat</p> <p>( ) won a contest<br>( ) been suspended from school<br>(x) had detention<br>(x) been in a car accident</p> <p>( ) had braces<br>(x ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night<br>(x) had deja vu<br>(x ) danced in the moonlight</p> <p>(x) hated the way you look<br>( ) witnessed a crime<br>( ) pole danced<br>(x) questioned your heart<br>( x) been obsessed with post-it notes</p> <p><br>(x) squished barefoot through the mud<br>(x) been lost<br>( ) been to the opposite side of the country</p> <p>( ) swam in the ocean<br>(x) felt like dying</p> <p>(x) cried yourself to sleep<br>(x) played cops and robbers<br>(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers<br>( ) sung karaoke<br>(x) paid for a meal with only coins</p> <p>(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't<br>(x) made prank phone calls<br>(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose<br>(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue<br>(x ) kissed in the rain</p> <p><br>(x) written a letter to Santa Claus<br>( ) been kissed under a mistletoe<br>( x) watched the sun set with someone you care about<br>(x) blown bubbles<br>( x) made a bonfire on the beach</p> <p><br>( x) crashed a party<br>( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people<br>(x) gone rollerskating/blading<br>(x) had a wish come true<br>( ) humped a monkey</p> <p><br>(x) worn pearls<br>( ) jumped off a bridge<br>(x) screamed "penis" in class<br>( ) ate dog food<br>(x) told a complete stranger you loved them</p> <p>(x) sang in the shower<br>(x) have a little black dress<br>( ) fucked in a park<br>( ) fucked in the bathoom<br>(x) had a dream that you married someone<br>(x) glued your hand to something</p> <p><br>( ) got your toungue stuck to a pole<br>( ) kissed a fish<br>(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes<br>( ) been a cheerleader<br>(x) sat on a roof top</p> <p>( ) had sex at a church<br>(x) screamed at the top of your lungs<br>( ) done a one-handed cartwheel<br>(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours<br>(x) stayed up all night</p> <p><br>( ) didnt take a shower for a week<br>(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree<br>(x) climbed a tree<br>(x) had a tree house<br>(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone</p> <p><br>(x) believe in ghosts<br>( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes<br>(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school<br>( ) gone streaking<br>(x) played ding-dong-ditch</p> <p><br>(x) played chicken fight<br>(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on<br>(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger<br>(x ) broken a bone<br>(x) been easily amused</p> <p><br>( x) caught a fish then ate it<br>( ) made porn<br>(x) caught a butterfly<br>(x) laughed so hard you cried<br>(x) cried so hard you laughed</p> <p><br>(x) mooned/flashed someone<br>(x) had someone moon/flash you<br>(x) cheated on a test<br>(x) forgotten someone's name</p> <p><br>(x) slept naked<br>( ) French braided someones hair<br>( ) gone skinny dipping in a pool<br>( ) been kicked out of your house<br><br></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:132368 2005-05-30T16:21:27Z 2005-05-30T16:21:27Z i have this saying i say every day when steve or my rents ask me what i am going to do and it's just simple i am a loser and i have no friends. and i know thats how it is. it just feels like everyone around me is still in high school. i don't get why i feel like i have grown up faster than them i just do. i don't fit in here anymore. i don't have anything to say in the convos bcuz i don't know all of who they are talking about or the memories they are talking about bcuz i left for a yr and made my own things and realized who i am and what i want out of life and no one here understands them or was there with me. i just realized friendship around here just means having someone to go to a party or something with it doesn't mean just knowing you're there for each other just whenever you're free or whenever you need a friend....around here a friend is someone you have to see and be with or talk everyday or you have nothing in common and you're pointless and i just find that to be really pathetic. i just want to get out of here and never come back... 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miracles?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">no</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes if u truely love that person</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Consider yourself tolerant of others?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">no</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Like the taste of alcohol?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Fave candy?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">don't like any</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Believe in astrology?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">kind of</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Believe in magic?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">no</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Believe in God?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Pray?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">not often</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Go to church?</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">sometimes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;" colspan="2">Moving on:</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Have any secrets?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">not really</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Any pets?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">of my own just spookers</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">College?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">switching to saginaw valley</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Major?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">switchin from chem eng to business management</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Talk to strangers who IM you?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">sometimes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Wear hats?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">not odten</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Hate yourself?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">a lot of the time</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Wish you were someone else?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">no</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Have an obsession?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">i have small obssesions but they don't last long</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Collect anything?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">no</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Have a best friend?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">hmm kind of</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Wish on stars?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">always have and always will</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Like your handwriting?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">no</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Any bad habits?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">biting my nails</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Care about looks?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">my own yes anyone elses not really</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Believe in witches?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Satan?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Ghosts?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Trust others easily?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yes</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Like noise? Music?:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">definitly</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;" colspan="2">First thing you think of:</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I see:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">that game i spy something....</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I need:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">love</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I find:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">stuff to buy</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I want:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">too much</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I wish:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">for everything a nice house, cool appliances and stuff, to be done with school, to get marrired...</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I love:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">steve koslakiewicz</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I hate:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">being held down</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I miss:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">ppl</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I fear:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">leaving things behind</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I hear:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">running fan</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I smell:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">rain (windows are open and fan running)</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I crave:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">to be cuddled</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I search:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">for somewhere that feels like i fit right in like a missing puzzle piece</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I wonder:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">where i'll end up</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I regret:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">.....</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">I cried:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">today</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;" colspan="2">Last time you.:</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Bought something:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">today</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Danced:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">in steve's kitchen</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Were sarcastic:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yesterday</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Kissed someone:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">2 weeks ago</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Talked to an Ex:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">yesterday</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Had a nightmare:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">last night</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Last book you read:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">something for school</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Last movie you saw:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">how to lose a guy in 10 days</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Last song you heard:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">i dunno</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Last thing you had to drink:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">milk</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Feeling this moment:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">bored, lonely, and cold</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;" colspan="2">Favorites:</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Band:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">??</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Show:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">gilmores girls</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Movie:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">how to lose a guy in 10 days</td></tr><tr><td style="font-family:Verdana;background-color:#3886D3;padding:5px;font-size:12px;color:#fff;text-align:right;">Song:</td><td style="background-color:#8AB8E6;color:#000;font-size:12px;padding:5px;text-align:left;">if i ain't got you ~alicia keys</td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><p 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afford that much beer. :*( so off to more boredum and thinkin too much. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:131458 2005-05-26T19:59:37Z 2005-05-26T19:59:37Z not much going on. today just cleaned my houses windows for some cash. hopefully i'll get it soon so i can get this dress for all these weddings there are to go to. one being next weekend and i am nervous about it bcuz i'll meet steve's whole family for the first time. <br /><br />worked things out with my sis dyan. all sisters and stuff fight i guess. i am just not used to it. lol.<br /><br />hung out with jojo yesterday just drove around looking for health departments and got taco bell and hung out at her moms. nothing crazy but i love spending time with her. i love you jojo! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:darnevilthings:131307 2005-05-24T01:40:21Z 2005-05-24T02:39:07Z so today i went to saginaw valley. and with my cold and all took 3 hrs worth of placement tests and registered for classes. <br />My schedule goes as followed:<br />Intermediate algebra 9:30-10:20am MTWR<br />Financial accounting 10:30am-12:20pm MW<br />Principles of macroeconomics 6-10pm R<br />U.S history 9-11:50am F<br />not that you really care about that, but i do. my mom and i went together and it was a fun day checking out the town and driving around with her. then it took longer than we thought so i had to go to class with her which even though i don't like teaching it was an entertaining class. <br /><br />hung out with jojo friday and that was fun. we played hop-scotch, wrote with chalk, played with bubbles, helped make homemade jojo's dad spagetti, watched a 5 month old baby boy, got dairy queen, and swang on the swings and talked. it was almost like a kt and jojo day like back in high school best buds every day kind of days. i miss those days, but i enjoyed friday a lot. <br /><br />haven't talked to steve all weekend. i dunno he's too cool for me. lol. no he just doesn't find it important to call me back or call me first. i dunno it's always been that way but it's starting to bug me lately. i just get the feeling like i like him too much or more than he likes me. and when i feel like that it's never a good thing bcuz i feel ppl should care equally and it can't be just shown in words but needs to be in actions too. i'm just not going to care anymore and i am going play this out like he has been since he left tech and i can promise u if we're both playing this relationship the way he has been it wont last the distance and u know what if he doesn't care.... why should i? all he can say is he ims sometimes at night to try to get me to talk to him when he gets off work and he came down once and he came up to tech once. i've driven down with adam 4 times, let alone i paid for him when he came up to tech, and i call him every day until i get a hold of him and not even like constant annoying just like once or twice b4 he goes to work and i even call and leave him cute messages when he's at work like he asks me to not like he'd do that for me he wont even call back...thanks.